Thursday, September 9, 2010

If only I could live by these words


How exactly do you learn to do this?
I have been told to just do this and I will be fine. Yeah, Thanks but I need the map to this place. I can't seem to find it. I think it stems from fear of the unknown and being unprepared for it.
I have been called a strong woman which is a role I no longer want. To be strong I need to be able to handle anything which means I need to know what is coming which of course is all about control. Control has ruined many things.
I have dabbled in this before and usually I get my toes just dipped in to a boatload of work it will take to unravel me and I quit. It is just too much work. It is easier to stay tight and protected in my safety net, right? It feels like I am looking over the ledge into a deep, dark, pitch black hole and I have NO IDEA what is lurking down there. I can't stand the idea of how deep it may be or what might be creeping around down there.
I am afraid of the dark.
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2 comments:

MOM said...

Maybe the Serenity Prayer would be better- God help me to the willingness to accept the things I cannot change, the courage to change the things I can and the wisdom to know the difference. Love, Mom

September 13, 2010 at 6:06 PM
MOM said...

Screwed up- it should say: give me the willingness to accept, etc. I've already accepted my screw-up :)Mom

September 13, 2010 at 6:08 PM

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