Sunday, December 14, 2014

2015 Planning

I have been really thinking about the upcoming year, as everyone else I'm sure.
I wanted to start working on a bucket list but I am feeling like that is too much pressure to do stuff, like it has to be done and I don't want the pressure I just want a flow to my life. If I can make it happen fantastic but if it doesn't work out than it wasn't meant to be or something better came up.
This past weekend I loosely wanted to go hiking but every time I looked at a map or the weather I found myself indecisive. It didn't happen and I am okay with that. What I did do was finish up the kids Christmas shopping. I found some fantastic deals for clothes which Olivia truly needed and supplies to make a present I almost forgot about for 40% off. I got my little friends picture taken with Santa as a favor to his dad who was stuck at work and I cooked a new recipe so we could have dinner and I would have food for the double shift I was working Sunday. And music...there was some kitchen dancing.
It has taken me years to transition to being ok with my "new" Christmas. I do not buy for anyone outside my house. I just can't. I literally would be taking away from them to give to you so I hope you understand. I also found myself just buying shit. I need a present for this person and it had no meaning. That was not feeling good on the inside so I had to let it go. I will say if I can get it together I would love to make more presents but this year I just couldn't.
One of the gifts I am excited about (and I hope they will be) is a coupon book for each girl. I asked friends for ideas but it quickly started to sound expensive and that was not my point. My point was just a date with each girl. It could totally be something free. I scored some nice card stock and to make 12 coupons and a cover. I picked a color that I think fit each month and once a month they can cash in a coupon for 1 date with Mom. There may be a drive-in or bowling date but there can also be a bike path or sunset date. They can choose. I hope they love the idea as much as I do. Maybe if I can remember I will keep a picture of each date and new Christmas I could give them a calender or collage of them. Hmmm, if only I can remember this come next December.
Now back to 2015. I am thinking of making a list. Maybe a dream list. I would love to take some tax money and make a few things solid like camp sites. This way we only need food and travel money and we are assured a place. I clearly understand that my dreams are bigger than my wallet or vacation days but no one said these things need to be done in 1 year. Add your 2 cents or suggestions in comments if you want as I love new Adventure ideas.
So without further ado......
1. Mount Washington - I have never been there.
2. The Flume - Went as a kid and seems like my kids should see it. I am thinking this could be done together but of course I have no idea. More research needs to be done.
3. Harpoon BBQ Festival in Vermont - pretty much a YES and will be booking a camp site as soon as I have the money.

4. Acadia National Park - need more days. No doubt about it. I already know about 2 hikes and a boat trip I NEED to do.
5. Running. That is a planned event on the list because it can't fall between the cracks and I want to run some races which is money. They need to be planned for too. Falmouth Road Race, Pells Bridge Run, Foamfest, Newport 10 Miler. I am sure other random ones will happen but these are the big ones.

6. Tubing - We talked out this the last 2 Winters and never went.
7. Wolf Lodge - if I can choke down the ridiculous cost but I am not against blowing this off. $400 is obscene in my opinion.
So there it is for now. I am sure it will expand but I just kept thinking let's write  it out. Gives me a goal and makes it more real.

Thursday, December 11, 2014

YES!!! I passed.

I did the Physical Agility test today for the police department. I have been stressed, tried putting it out of my head, hoped I would forget, hoped a magic wand would swing then I just resigned myself to the fact that if I failed I would try again in the Spring.
I needed to run 1.5 minutes in 17:44 plus 2 of the things below.
19 sit-up
Bench press 50% of my weight
11 push ups
I did a trial run a while back and could do the run but not the sit-ups. I will admit I haven't practiced. I kept meaning to. Now I am thinking you can run but you will fail in a sit up??
Well hot fucking damn I passed!!!!
I got 20 sit ups done too.
I ran it is 16:56.
Pressed the weight .
Boom!! 4 days off.
Now back to work Karol and I are excited and proud and you know what I am starting to realize I believe in myself.
Since when have I said - Oh I have the run?? I ran before years ago but I never owned it.
Well I own it now. It's mine.
The best part about it is that it doesn't have to be the same for you. We can run the same road and be in different places. It's ok.

Tuesday, December 9, 2014

I don't care

I want to start by saying I am not grouchy.
I am not in a bad mood.
I just plainly don't care.
Let's start with it's Christmas and the waste is ridiculous. I love how Christmas is also the excuse. I was just told outright, I know she doesn't need it but hey, it's Christmas.
Yeah, what the hell. Just add more crap. Maybe they will love you more.
No one listens so I just nod. I have repeatedly said BUY US THINGS TO DO!!!
But that won't put a big box under the tree. No but we would enjoy a $100 swimming gift card so much more than a present that will be left in a week.
I also don't get the name brands and have to haves.
Being poor is making it's mark and deep. I am not complaining. I sort of like it.
People are just pissing me off again too.
I don't want to hear your excuses, explanations, nose in anyone else's business, judgements or put downs.
I am still guilty of this when I am around people who do this and I am sorry for that. I am working on it. It is a slow process when it is all around you.
Live your life the best you can and shut the fuck up.


It's my Blog and I can brag if I want to, brag if I want to, brag if I want to....
I love these pants and I have owned them for a very long time.
They finally fit and fit right again.
Don't hate it took a lot of sweat to get here again.

Saturday, December 6, 2014

Jingle Jog 5K

It was my first "dress up" race. I will say the tutu was pretty cool. I made it myself. 
The race was rainy but I like running in the rain. The temperature was about 48 degrees. This is really a perfect temperature for me too. 
I try hard not to look at my watch during a race but as I rounded the corner I saw the 33 minute time in the clock. When I crossed the finish line I had a time of 34:40. YES! 
I have cut almost 3 minutes off my time since the Girly-Girl Parts race at the end of September. 
I am feeling tired muscles since running every day but it felt pretty good to run 3 miles today. I plan on getting out on the road again tomorrow and I will go back to the 1 mile thing during the week and as a last resort the treadmill. 10 days out of 36 down. 

Thursday, December 4, 2014

Smurfette is a busy little elf

This adventure is actually a little fun. Not the elf itself but the interaction between Ava and Smurfette.
Last year our cat knocked a glass donut ornament off the tree and it broke. I searched Ebay ect and couldn't find one for less than a million dollars so this year she asked Smurfette for help. Nana looked everywhere too and no luck so she got 2 Dunkin Donuts ball ornaments instead. That is what Smurfette is explaining in her return letter. Av didn't seem to mind and was excited.
The next night, last night Smurfette decided not to sleep but chill out with Dinosaur Fu-fu. I don't know how she does it. I hope she sleeps during the day. She must be exhausted.
Ava was kind enough to leave her old school folder after she got a new one tonight. Now she has something to hold all her letters from Ava.

She also asks Why did you take my candy cane? Smurfette was nice enough to return it and hang it on Ava's stocking so she ate that on the way to school.

Tuesday, December 2, 2014

Thanksgiving Hungover

Not going to lie, I am still recovering.
I wanted to leave Virginia at 8am but I woke up about 7:30 so that wasn't happening. By the time I ran, packed up, ate, packed the car and got into the car it was more like almost 11am.
FFffffftttt!! We had a good 12 hour drive ahead of us. The good part was now it was daylight and we could see what we sped past in the middle of the night when we drove up.
On the way down we took the map directions because we didn't know any better so we drove through Washington DC. Olivia was awake and it was like 5am so we saw the Capital Building and talked about all the awesome places in our Capital. That was pretty cool as I have been wanting to take a trip there to see them myself.
On the way back Dennis gave us some advice to avoid the city traffic which would be not so cute in the middle of the day. Phew!
The traffic sucked in NYC and CT. The 4 miles to the GW Bridge sign that stated 44 minutes wasn't a great read but we survived and made it home around Midnight.
 Delaware Memorial Bridge.

Sunday the kids had a Baptism to go to and I napped and did a quick walk with my buddy. I only wish I had more time.
Once the kids came home it was straight to laundry, unpacking and cooking. We had life to get back to in the morning. Ava decided she needed to make her own cookie bars like Andrea had made for us. Um, Okay sure let's bake now.
Now if this post doesn't make you exhausted than I am not sure what will.
Let me remind you this was what I jammed into my weekend.
Monday was the girls first day back after Thanksgiving break and all the kids told the story about their Elf returning. I was hit with a very emotional kid asking where Smurfette was and how she was never coming now that I had thrown the box that she came in out. She lived there Mom!
My only suggestion was to write her a letter and ask her to return.

Can you feel my heart break a little?
So as soon as they went to bed this elf got to work. I slowly and quietly started bringing up Christmas decorations. I took down all the pumpkins, leaves and regular stuff on the mantle and replaced it with Christmas stuff.
I finally made a Sorry banner, a letter from Smurfette and Smurfette herself appeared.
As it turns out she was late because she was home sick in bed with the elf flu. THAT EXPLAINS IT!

It is now Tuesday and I am still hungover. Clearly you see why.
Tonight I am trying to attend a class on Stress, Anxiety and Depression in Teens. I need all the tools I can get for myself and my very grown up 11 year old.
Add dinner, help with homework, and a run and my day will be complete.
I would say that I need a mental health day but really my mental health is pretty damn good right now. Now I just need a nap.

Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44

05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05

6/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26

6/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05

7/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52

08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31

08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30

10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10

05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17

05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50

08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37

10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00

09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31

10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20

8/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29

5/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17

6/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00

8/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35

9/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02

10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10

11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23

12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11