Monday, August 31, 2015

This Vacation was brought to you by Blue Cross and Blue Shield

So hey guess what? A stomach ache isn't always just a bug. Sometimes it's an organ that needs to be evicted. I mean this is sort of crazy that like 9 months ago I had stomach pain and walked into a hernia surgery so when I walked in and was told could be your appendix I seriously looked at her like WTF? Start prepping for the CT and I'll call for transport. 
I will say that I was happy to hear Dr. Kruger was working so the whole process was quick. I arrived at Tobey hospital and was met by 3 nurses. I was checked in financially, medically and the 3rd took 6 tubes of blood all at the same time. By the time I walked to the bathroom and back I was ready to head for a CT Scan. 
Dr Kruger walked in shortly after that test and said I'm calling in the team you need to have the appendix out. From this moment on I was called a Lap Appy. I wish I felt as cute as the name but I do not. I have had only a few periods where the pain is completely managed since Friday. That alone is exhausting. 
But this time they took so much better care of me. I had the room to myself. I had a beautiful view of the sun going down and the Full moon coming up. I was trying to dig out the positives trust me. I mean no need to be all sorry-shit happens, body parts break. I am grateful I have insurance, a good surgeon and I got help just as it was perforating. I hear it gets really bad when it bursts.

Luckily Nana and Chelsea were available to hold down the fort and Aunt Cindy took them so they didn't miss their concert Sunday night. I am very lucky to have a good family. Ava sent me some I love you videos from her and her sisters so this was my response photo. Cute right?

This roast beef may not look that great but after a couple days of full liquids it becomes the greatest delicacy in the USA. It needed to be celebrated and photographed.

So I am home now and resting but sadly my house is a mess, my lawn is a foot tall and school starts in a week and I can't drive until Friday. Sound familiar? Yes, the last medical "adventure" occurred the week before Christmas. I am still having trouble controlling the pain so I can't overdue anything it just hurts too much but hoping tomorrow will be the beginning of the turn around.

Friday, August 21, 2015

Water Wizz

First words out of my mouth-Are you friggin' kidding me? Yeah, girls I think we are going home. The line was out to the street and we were parking in Tibuktu and walking back to join it. I could see nothing correct about this but as the kids both from the back seat say "Ok Mom" in quiet voices I am thinking Fuck.....I am in that line. 
Well as you can see we made it in. Once they opened the line moved relatively fast-1 hour but I learned some things. Buy tickets online and go at like 9am even though they open at 10. Oh and rent a tube. $5 and you can cut a lot of lines.  

These kids had fun and this kid below had fun. We hiked it over to Wendy's and brought back lunch and spent about 5-6 hours in the hot sun. I was very grateful Erin put her name on the waiting list so we also scored a Cabana. This allowed up a shady meeting plate when needed.
Crazy as this sounds we are headed back there Monday with different friends.

43rd Falmouth Road Race

As soon as I walked in the door I smiled. I can't explain it but I like races and this is by far my favorite. I think they do an excellent job with the amount of people racing. I am also a little partial to the route in my hometown being so beautiful. 
This year was my fifth year and will definitely not be my last. 

So excited to have found these great people in all of the crowds. They are my support team that keep me believing I can do anything I want and I am the pain in the ass that talks them into re-signing up year after year.

Oh and run with a few others. Like 12,000. This picture doesn't really do it justice. I would say this was an hour before start and still people were being bussed in.

I maybe should have looked at this photo a few time along the route because there were times after mile 3 where I clearly "Did not have it". I was losing the battle against lack of sleep and the heat for sure. It was one of the hottest Road races and maybe ever race I have done. I was feeling the pressure and decided if I planned on finishing I needed to get back ahead of it so I doubled every water stop. I hit every hose along the route to stay cool too. By the 5th mile I actually was thinking I might need medical at the end but fuck if I was going to quit I would rather pass out attempting to finish. Around mile 6,  I walked and was feeling pretty defeated as I realized I would not be beating my best time ever. I was completely on track for that about 2 months ago. Although I swore I was competing to complete and I was forgiving myself for this lack of running and struggle with work I will wanted to beat myself.
Just at the bottom of the last hill this lady came up on my side and we were able to speak for a few minutes. We were doing it and I was kind of excited to have her there and hear her encouragement. You have to run and smile that last hill that is where they take your picture!!

In the end We did it and we did it well.
I did not beat my fastest time but I came in 2nd and beat last years time by 9 minutes. As usual it just made me want more. When is the next race you ask?? September for sure and then on from there.
This is the view from my post race relaxation seat and it was much deserved. After a cold shower I jumped on the boat with my friend and her family an we headed to Oak Bluffs. Can I just say I miss a boat ride? I think it has been a couple years since I was out of a boat. Can't beat it.
We scarfed down food, swam, laughed, rode back to the bay in Waquoit for calmer water, ate again and watched the sun go down.
Dreamy and a perfect day for me.

Saturday, August 15, 2015

I miss my Life

Remember this heading photo on Facebook? 
I barely do. These were my 3 loves. 
I talked about yoga like a new boyfriend.
I ran up hills like a warrior.
I hiked to find peace.
I feel flabby, tired and passionless. I am waiting though. I will be back and I need to have patience.
Sadly realizing today is exactly 50% of the way through hell. & weeks down and 7 weeks to go. 
Yesterday I did go to pick up my Falmouth Road race number. I felt the stir as soon as I walked into the gym and under the Welcome Runners banner. I will participate as Runner 11262. I may not kill my time as I had expected to when I signed up but I will do my best. I have run this race before with no training so although I haven't run in 1 month I was in the best condition I have ever been in. I also run heavily on Spirit and this race is full of it. 
In the past this race has also been the catapult into my Fall running so if I try to put a positive spin on things I am actually right on time. Last year I was not running at all but after "running" the Road Race I started the Couch to 5K again. At the completion of that I ran the Pells Bridge Race (4 miles) and then the Newport 10 miler in June. All while taking a month off for hernia surgery and recovery and a month off to shovel snow. 
I am not sure if I am convincing you or me but the point is I have come back many times since starting my running career 7 years ago and I will do it again. 
In reality is will all come back in time. 
There is a Hot Yoga studio 10 minutes from my house. Just need to put the nerves about that away and show up. 
Hiking will continue when school starts again.Easy Peasy.
This schedule just needs to be handled and there is no other way but to chug along. Forgive yourself the shortcomings in other areas. I might be a zombie but I have spent some really good time with the kids and have a few stretches of 5 days off to finish off the Summer. 

Sunday, August 9, 2015

White Knuckling

A friend of mine posted in an online group I am a part of that she was messaged and attacked by a woman for being overweight yet pushing us to eat clean, take vitamins and drink water. She actually called her a liar. I call her a realist. 
This, in my current emotional state, pissed me off probably more than it should have but it also prompted some inner thought for me. 
I have been hanging on by a thread most days. I get close to normal for my days off and then I am back to the dredges of Hell come Monday which is essentially my Friday. This weekend is one of the worst. 
In any case I am sitting here thinking which I have had so much trouble with lately-clear thinking is not so easy right now. 
I think I am just trying to live. I know that may sound dramatic but I mean it in the most simplistic way actually. I have been toying around with this thought and not sure what it means and not sure I am ready to do it completely but I believe it is a process that I must start. 
For example-I am trying to eat healthy but worried if am I eating a rainbow, enough fiber, the wrong type of diet, too much butter, too much bacon? Sigh, a magazine article can cause me to feel overwhelmed . Must buy Kale!!!
I am not running enough, what is a fartlek and why aren't I going to track training to learn? 
Why are you not the Superhero that media says you should be to be a great Mom? 
Am I explaining it clearly? Not sure but what I am getting at is I believe it is time for me to learn and really believe that I am already a Superhero in my own little world even if I am not a super athlete, not a very good vampire or if I have a donut in my hand. I am not a failure if I ebb and flow in this life. I make the rules. 
Funny but just as I believe Facebook is the bane to my existence I also follow some pages that inspire me. 
This is what I just found there. 

Saturday, August 8, 2015

Nature Scavenger Hunt

I woke up from my morning nap and of course was hit by kids who are stagnant and arguing. I offer if we can tackle their room for 20-30 minute together we could get it cleaned up and move on. Surprisingly it took a little longer but got completely cleaned and vacuumed.
Due to an argument over room cleaning Ava lost Internet/Game privileges.  So while I cooked lunch and fed them they played a whole game of Life. (God, I wish I didn't need to sleep so I could ditch TV for the Summer). Anyway, while they did this I sat outside at the picnic table to let Lilly have some suntan time and I made a Nature Scavenger Hunt list.
Of course they are assholes about what we are doing and why until we get to Beebe Woods and I hand them the list and a back pack to collect their treasure. 
All was fun until poor Ava stepped in dog poop. Nothing like taking a grouch to that place. :(
I will add that I had a great time. I haven't been in the woods enough and I hunted for items along with them. Who knew an acorn would be the item that derailed us?

Here is Olivia with her branch shaped like a Y and her "something not green or brown" which was a white pair of headphones.

We used these 2 photos as their "Something I think is beautiful". One of the rules was we wouldn't pick anything or ruin nature so we used photos for this and the flower on the list.

Olivia chose this arching tree over the trail as her Beautiful item.

This is Ava in front of the Punch Bowl as her beautiful item.

As we started to round the last bend towards Highfield Hall we were lucky enough to see the Library fairy house and made our way around seeing almost all 33 of them. Everyone was tired by now so we grabbed a map with a vow to come back and see them all without Lilly next time so we can go inside.

Quechee Camping trip

Typical, we just needed more time!! That's Okay it just makes you want to get back and do it again I guess. 
First I will say I am usually so excited to plan a ton of fun stuff. I put a lot of that on a side burner when Olivia planned to come and more of it went to the wayside when she fell in love with the gorge and swimming in it. 

This is part of the camper only trail to the gorge which Olivia stopped and pointed out-This looks like a place where dinosaurs live. Um, I have to agree.

Lilly was NOT TOO HAPPY to have this girl swimming away from her. Each time she jumped in she would bark and paw at the water as if to say Get back here! Sadly, the second day after a tough hike she just  couldn't handle it. Her stress level  got a little too much so we had to head back to camp. She was super freaked out.

We decided to head down the road for more chocolate for s'mores and found a super pizza place and a Subway. So much for camp cooking. We were just starving.
As soon as we got back Lilly kept harassing us and we realized she wanted in bed. so we let her in the tent and she was out. This photo is of us trying to go to bed but Lilly was hogging the bed and snoring like an old man. We are clearly tired and giggling like fools at this. our neighboring campers must have thought we were nuts. The night before we laid in bed looking through the photos of the day and laughing.
Better than being kept away by the drunks or the baby crying at 3am.

We did manage to get 1 hike in on Mt Ascutney. We made it 1.1 miles to Cascade Falls where the girls cooled off and played in the pools. Unfortunately Liv slipped on some rocks and hurt her leg and then her butt. Ouch! So we decided not to go any further and slowly make out way back down.
She did feel well enough to cross this fallen tree on all fours. I had a mix of terror and not wanting her to be afraid to try super cool stuff so I held my breathe and took photos from all angles. I admire her guts.
We decided to have lunch/dinner at this cute little diner once we got out of the woods around 4pm. Nice to be one of only 4 people here and talk with the owner while he cooked our food right in front of us at the counter.

The second night it seemed Mother nature decided to give us a show. We heard and saw 2 owls on the hunt in the campsites around us. We think they may have been shopping a porcupine slowing making his way around in a little clearing below our site. Then as we were closing down the fire and getting ready for bed This guy showed up and even jumped up on Olivia's foot. I think he wanted to snuggle with us in the tent.

This shot just sums it up. They came home happy and tired. Correction WE came home happy and tired.

Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54