Tuesday, July 29, 2014

Camping in Vermont

 First of all, this was one of the best traveling partners I could have asked for. He had never done most of what we made him do and he just rocked it. We packed the truck and strapped him in and were on the road at the crack of dawn....before 7 maybe. It is all a whirlwind which I mostly didn't even look at my watch for. That was exactly what the weekend was supposed to be about.
We had a plan to get to the Harpoon BBQ Championship. We made a few stops along the way an till got there about an hour before the gates opened. You know what ? I became a person who just took their time. We walked the dog, found some Adirondack chairs and chilled then we chatted it up with others waiting in line.
 We ate and walked and took breaks and ate and let people love up on Mugsy. We can't go anywhere with out that happening. Sadly the picture above was a lie and my heart broke a little. The kid says we changed it this year-it is pulled pork sprinkler with brown sugar and then deep fried. So no bacon? Sorry no. PASS! I will say we were not eating sugar anyway so this would have been a big rule breaker. After a few hours we called it a day and made some choices on things we wanted to take home. Trust me we had a plan. I had a backpack on and we brought zip lock bags so we went to the places we liked and bought a few things. We packed salad and fruit and yogurt and now we had ribs and brisket and sausages. Delish!
 Once we got the the campground it was quick work to set up camp so we decided to take the path from the campground to Rt 4 so I could show Dave and Mugsy the view from the Bridge. Breathtaking!

 Once we got to the bottom Mugs was not too thrilled to be begged, cajoled, bribed to come out to the edge of the river but he did it and took a swim. ( not thrilled would be the best description). I didn't have my bathing suit on but stuck my feet in and it was awesome. Our plan was to return for a swim later or the next day. Mother nature put the nix on that unfortunately.

 This was the route back on the campers only path to the campground. Beautiful and not for the faint at heart in the hiking department. Loved it all.
 Back at the site this was our set-up. And after a much needed shower for me this was what Mugsy looked like-a snoring little rag doll who needed some cuddle time. Now time for some reheated BBQ and a salad for dinner. We were starving.

 After waking to some mild rain we found that the forecast had changed. We were now looking at about an 80% chance of rain with some thunder and lightning and 1-2 inches of rain overnight. We made the decision to pack up camp. Perfect timing as we pulled up to the gate to tell the heavens opened up and it poured and the thunder started. I love storms but on the ground is not where I want to sleep in 2 inches of rain.
 Over breakfast in the coolest little diner we made the decision to meander. Wherever we wanted and just drive. We came across some cool places and just stopped wherever along the way. The sky cleared up as you can see.

 We switched off if we wanted to go inside places so Mugsy got plenty of sight seeing himself.

Our road trip ended but we both agreed we were not ready for it to be over so after a dinner of the rest of the BBQ we dashed out to a 9pm showing of Lucy in Braintree. If you can get to a movie there I suggest it. All I will say is RECLINERS!
I will finish up this epic post by saying it was one of the best trips I have had in a long time. I had some great company who rolled with it like I do. Hoping the good feelings last as long as possible.

Friday, July 18, 2014

Mama's Vacation

Where do I even begin?
I am going back to Vermont for the Harpoon BBQ fest and I am pretty excited.
I am super excited to actually have 2 partners in crime who are willing to do anything. 
"Whatever you want to do we can do". PSYCHED!
I will say that might include nothing or 100 things. I don't really care. I will be away for 4 days. Yahoo.
His suggestion- Lets find a bunch of places to swim. 
Look what I found: http://www.swimmingholes.org/vt.html.
We are tent camping in Queeche which fills one of my requests to hike down to the gorge and one of his because we can swim there. I am not sure Mugsy will be thrilled with all this walking but he will need to man up or learn to ride in a back pack. Hopefully this makes for a smoother night of sleeping in the tent. 
Can't even wait 7 days folks, 7 DAYS!!!!
Last Saturday I set up the tent and put the mattress in to make sure it will work for us. My friend bought a mammoth cooler which we will fill with fruit and veggies and then just add tons and tons of BBQ as our protein. That is the plan anyway. Other than that cards, fire, no internet or power. 

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

For Carla

I was dragged awake this morning deep in the middle of a dream. Carla loves this shit so this is a post for her even though I don't think she reads my blog.
I am writing it out because I feel it slowing fading and I think it means something.
So I bump into my friend at a store. I have a car full of people but I can't see any of their faces. He is in his own vehicle. We pull out and it is construction. As the policeman waves me to go I can't. I am physically like leaning forward wishing I would move forward but that is not working. All the while I haven't touched the gas. I finally realize how stupid I must look and I slowly give it gas and we drive forward. This person is still driving behind us until a fork in the road where he just takes a right and is gone.No fuss, no muss.
Analyze that bitches!
1. I have the power to push the gas and move on if I just take it.
2.Maybe the pain is that he took that right without looking back. That has certainly happened to me before.
I will say that it seemed an important message when I first woke up and it was still fresh like it really happened.
As always I will take your 2 cents.

Monday, July 7, 2014

Forth of July

Not trying to be a Debbie Downer but this past week sucked. Wait didn't I already say that? Well it did.
I actually welcomed a fucking Hurricane. Bring it!
I dragged in all my outdoor stuff, cracked up the coffee pot and went to work cleaning the girls room.
Dumped a black trash bag of clothes for donation, 2 regular trash bags in the trash and donated a bag of books,
Looks like there is a floor again.
We bundled up and hit Dairy Queen at about 7 and checked out the ocean.
Our Fireworks were moved up to SUnday the 6th instead. Still not feelin' it but you do what the kids need.
We had to make quick work of it as I work Sunday's now but we got there at about 7 and there was still plenty of room. I can't do the whole crazy Heights things but after last night I see I am going to have to. The kids deserve the full effect of Falmouth Fireworks and all the Heights craziness.
We played for a bit and then stood together and oohed and aahed together.

Thursday, July 3, 2014

Start of Summer

I have been working for the last 2 weeks without a day off so I have been doing what I can to sneak in my Summer around work. Last weekend at Sunday dinner I brought this sac race with me and that lead to a cool bunch of fun outdoor games. The kids did great at this game, limbo,
jump over the stick and Simon says.
I have also managed to get to the beach a few days after work too. This picture is a day when just Olivia and I did Menahaunt. It was nice to have some time with just her. We investigated the old bridge and I told her about the old story I was told of a burned down pirate house that used to be there. No idea if it is true but my Nana told me the story so I passed it along. 

Last night I went early while they were with their Dad and saved us some up front spaces at the 1st outdoor movie at Peg Noonan park. I love this movie and so do they. I love outdoor activities on the Cape but will be grateful when the crowds mellow out a little again. This week feels like the Cape is swollen to it's limit. Maybe it is just my limit. 
I need a day at the beach but with this storm coming and 2 more overtime shifts on the next 2 Fridays I don't see that happening for a while.


It's been a week.
I just re-read my last post to see how I felt in comparison.
I am angry. I feel like he hurt me with joke on Saturday that we obviously disagree was not a joke. I have not spoken to him again except to explain that I didn't think it was a joke, the more he explained it it just seemed to be more of a dig and so I am really hurt now.
I have changed my mind about making mistakes.
I did.
I stayed when I wasn't being treated the way I want to be treated. I let him do things, although mild, that I wasn't comfortable with. I also didn't express this so I just let it happen to me and that was wrong.
I need to trust my own needs and feelings. I found somethings he said disrespectful and instead of saying Hey dickhead what is that? I tried to roll with it. That lead to a growing sense of discomfort in the end.
Why am I still doing this?
Try that shit outside of a relationship and I will lay it out there for you. I would probably lay it out flat like a map right now if I could but instead I just chalked it up to a problem with me. I need to be more tolerant, more open, more light heart, more..... I don't know. More open to taking your shit is what it ended up being.
This is not a hate it is a lesson.
I will not do that again.
In any case, it has been a rough week. It is one of the busiest of the year I would say on the day shift. I need to continue to be a Mom and hey let's try to handle some personal shit like this.
I haven't had the sufficient time to cry, think about it and them forgive it and move on. I woke up after a dream the other night feeling a little clearer (forgot what that was exactly now) and I have been having a few pops of clarity then that is mowed over by lack of money and stress of managing the house.
Hey, life is never boring around here.

Thursday, June 26, 2014

Not hatin'

And this pops up on my Facebook feed.
Factual Fact because I might doubt myself sometimes but I am a good person.

Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44

05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05

6/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26

6/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05

7/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52

08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31

08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30

10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10

05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17

05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50

08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37

10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00

09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31

10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20

8/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24