Friday, October 31, 2014

The Bitch in my head needs to go.

 I worked hard for this race and after some serious nerves I allowed myself to be pretty proud of the time. In fact I think I may have let out a little "yes" and a smile when I ran across the finish line and saw that time. Damn it!!
So when the email came out that 700 photos of the race were released I scoured them. There was not an option to search for my bib so I literally went through 700 photos and got these 2.
First reaction to the bottom one? Save it for me but do not tag yourself on Facebook. Fat. Too embarrassed.
I am being ridiculous. I remember running behind a woman with some junk in her truck and thinking Go Girl!! Size does not matter. We can all have muscles under that fat to move mountains.
Yet here I am looking at this photo and missing the whole big giant picture.
I can hear people say things, in fact I have a good amount of support around me but in my head sometimes is the toughest critic. She is a bitch and she needs to go. I am talking the talk but not always believing it.
Instead I should be hearing....
You are running.
You did it while most people were still home in their pajamas.
That junk in your trunk is a power house to get you over the hills.
Go Girl!!

I am also in a pull back place this week. I feel it and I am letting it take it's course. I am aware I do this occasionally just before I take off on a growth spurt again.
Like an arrow, baby!

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Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40
5/20/18 YPD Run to Remember 37.37 12:08