Tuesday, June 24, 2014

Love is......

Yesterday we started talking about "Summer people". This lead to me explaining that when the kids grow up they would either need to make adjustments to their lives due to the large change in population in our little town or decide that they may want to move off Cape.
I am not the type of Mama that wants to keep all my chicks under my wing forever but I did ask if they could make sure there was room for me to come visit to see my grandkids.
It is always funny to me where our conversations can go.
Ava says, I am not going to have kids.
Really, Why?
Somewhere in here I give my explanation of having kids and I am not sure where it came from or if I have ever said this to them but after it came out I think I actually explained my feelings clearer than I ever have even to myself.
I said when I married your dad I loved him and I was happy. When my first kid was born my heart grew bigger and I loved her. Then a second baby came and although you don't think you can make more love, you do and you are happy.
Then I explained the part I love the most, everyday I am filled with more love for them and I feel my heart grow. Sometimes it is that I am proud of the person they are becoming or sometimes it is just looking over and seeing their face in the sunshine. It can be something very big or very small. I miss them when they step on the bus and I am excited when they come back.
At this time Ava says - OK Mom you can stop now because you are going to make me cry. LOL!
So I explain I hope you have your own kids so you can feel this much love because I don't even think these words explain it properly.
Oh and yes kids are work. ( Thanks MOM....again from Ava) There is the work of doing my best to raise good people. Working at my job to have the money to provide for them BUT Ava it is all worth it because being your Mom is the best job and I wouldn't change that for the World.
I hope that covers it.

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Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40