Thursday, April 18, 2013

Jumping....

I have been here, done this before and it is kind of like having a baby. I know how bad it is going to suck so I am more hesitant.
But I am jumping off the junk train again. The scale has been saying fuck you for a while and I have been trying to not put my self value on the number on the scale so I have looked away.
Fact is there are bigger issues with the food: blood sugar, feeling like a slug and fat ass being a few.
I have started also thinking you have tackled some big shit and won so why not make this your next big thing. I really don't have any other "things" going on. Isn't that nice?
So as always, I didn't really plan or make a big fanfare. I am just doing it.
I am starving already but I just has some peas and some grilled chicken for lunch.
I am going to whisper this so listen close. I would eventually like to quit coffee.
I know, right?
I just think I need to get back to the basics of my own energy and I don't even know what that is. I have changed my whole life in so many ways for the good that I figure it is a nature load so why can't I do it without jet fuel?
I may not actually survive this goal but it's worth a try.
Currently it is 3pm and I had a Click shake at 9am and nothing else since and my head is starting to tighten up as I type.
Well, one step at a time.
No Cheez-its for dinner and no candy for breakfast.
Then we will see where I go from there.
Wish me luck!

2 comments:

Barry said...

*hug* I don't like watching you struggle with this, but I am (still) hear to listen.

Barry said...

*here

Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40