Friday, September 9, 2011

Mean People Suck!


Maybe I should be journaling and burning the pages so no one really knows what I think and how fucked up it really is but Life is a process isn't it?
I am learning everyday. You can tell me not to touch the stove but I still might. I need to learn some shit on my own and some people are going to think I am a nut while I figure it out. Sorry.
Funny thing is as I try to better myself I have to expose myself and I don't like that. It means I get hurt. Yeah, no Thank You. If I stay a cold hearted bitch it would be easier. I don't like these feelings. I also am confused about exactly what they are. Is that hurt, embarrassment, stupidity or my favorite catch all anger?
I am angry right now for exposing myself and now I feel like a fool. That one is my all time favorite - looking like a Idiot. I want to write and say Thanks for being a dickhead but that isn't going to do a damn thing besides make me look like a crazy bitch.
When I was hurt the most I promised myself one thing, I would always take the high road and not sink to that level. That is tough to do. I'm telling you bologna on someones paint would be so much more fun but it just isn't good for my soul.
I am better than that.
This will also pass but like a hangover it will take some cookies and a few days.
Hey Rude people-Suck it!


2 comments:

jazminmcshell said...

im in total agremance with you x

Anonymous said...

Fuck em, moving on!!!

Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40