
I immediately panic. Oh yeah, chest it tightening up. I am not home enough with her. I see her in the morning and once she gets on the bus I don't see her again until tomorrow morning. Thank you employment! I have been doing this for years so no daycare is needed but it is getting more complicated. Now that Dad is not here I want to be home in the evenings but daycare is too expensive, as you all know. I am riding out the Summer on nights but am in the planning stages to go to days in the Fall. Thinking this would be better for them. WTF! I need daycare for Ava before AND after preschool. I am grateful that she got into the title I program as it is free but now how to fill the hours around that program. I also need care for Olivia before and after school. All so I can be home for the few hours they are awake in the evening. Is this worth it? I do not know. This may be another cause of this anxiety. I want to limit the bouncing around and get them on a more regular schedule but it feels like I am just adding to their train ride of life. I would also be putting them with someone else from 7:20am until 4:30 pm and that is a difficult nugget for me to swallow both financially and emotionally.
It is funny to say this but how do "regular" working people do this? I have the opportunity to work Monday thru Friday 8-4-bankers hours-and it is the hardest thing for me to adjust to. Oh and this isn't until October. I am trying to look into options for daycare now before it gets too late and I can't find anything but most people I have talked to want an all day commitment-which I totally understand. I also don't want to compromise and send her to a crappy place just because they have space.
I obviously need to get back to my yard work. Garden-therapy was working for a while. Besides when I lose the house I want it to look good for the auction.
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