I try o try to live by this. Sometimes I am spitting in aggravation yet a beautiful sunbeam will come through the clouds and I smile. I used to think this made me a little bi-polarish but now I use these moments to get me out of those negative places.
I also try o try to show this to the kids. This week has been a rough one with Ava. She is struggling in school, short tempered at home and I am not getting any help.
Today I barely spoke but asked them to get in the car for a walk. Of course this is after a screaming fest where I had to send her to her room. UGH! My life is far from picture perfect and honesty is better than pretending it is always great.
I "made" them do this and as usual half way through Ava says blah, blah, blah because I love Mother nature.
So I keep trying. Keep making her. Keep trudging along because I am grateful for the moments when she walks up and hugs me, thanks me or says she loves what we are doing together.
Today my 3 favorite people went to my favorite place and had a great time. We walked along the beach and collected shells. Climbed to the Knob and Liv down to the water. They climbed all the crooked trees and they played with dogs on the other beach.
Now we are off to Aunt Cindy's and then Nana's for dinner.
Please give me the strength and patience to be the best Mom I can for both of them because they are the most important things in my life and I am extremely grateful everyday for them both.