Thursday, January 16, 2014

Responsible one

Sometimes don't you just want to delegate this job to someone else?
Hey dude, want to be the grown up for a while?
Good, I am thinking I would like to drive fast with the music up and make some bad life choices. Okay? You got this right?
I'll see you in a  few days or maybe a week.

I mean I would never give up my life. I love this life. I did this awesome shit myself. No one can repeat it and no one can beat it but I do believe every builder needs a break.

I have been thinking lately about from where all these responsibilities come from. Basically so I can squash them, tell them to fuck off and walk away.
I don't want to be completely irresponsible by any means but I want to be ok to take some risks and make mistakes.
That is harder than you think when you trace these lessons back to what you learned as a kid. Messages that you heard when you were 9 years old may not have been what you exactly heard but they were your understanding and they stuck.

And Fear. The 1 million dollar question I am always asked.
What could possibly happen?
Well Hell, I can make this story the worst you have ever seen or heard. My imagination is a gem.
I guess this stems from things happening that you just never expected so I expect the worst.
I will say as of recently I have stepped off that ledge and I have asked and I have not had a building fall on me. I may not have heard what I wanted to hear but I also know the answer now so I can figure out my next move.

So for now I would like to continue to whittle away my responsibilities to the bare bones. I need to continue to work on saying no and meaning it for my reasons and being ok with that choice.


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Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40