Monday, June 3, 2013

It's in the Cosmos

My Libra Horoscope today.

Monday, June 3, 2013
You often minimize your needs to make a situation more pleasant for someone else. However, you could go overboard today, trying to fix an emotional melodrama that really isn't your responsibility. Nosing around in other people's affairs rarely helps anyone, but you can still be a true friend by listening and showing your support. Caring for those you love is wonderful as long as you remember to take care of yourself, too.
This is soooo true for me.
I spend or shall I say spent ( a work in progress of course) a lot of time and energy trying NOT to be a certain person that I think I have lost who I am.
I don't want to be a bad Mom.
I don't want to be a nagging, bitchy, underemployed, bad wife.
I don't want to be this, that or the other.
So who exactly am I again?
I am a good Mom.
I am a good friend.
I am a good employee.
I am a rescuer.
I am the one who gets shit done.
I am the person who will give you the last of whatever I have if you need it.
I am silly, crazy, funny and a scatter brain.
I don't want to ask you for anything. I want you to like me but think most people don't. I never think I am doing a good enough job. I do not think I am beautiful but hope someone out there does.
I want to believe you when you tell me that I am.
I don't know where this came from today but it is what swirls around my brain on any given day.
Crazy should maybe moved to the top of that list.

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Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40
5/20/18 YPD Run to Remember 37.37 12:08