Thursday, October 25, 2012

Final step?


This whole time I have said this was a 3 step process-Divorce, Bancrupcy, Move.
Oh Silly, how it was so much more and is every single day.
It was the final BIG step of just this part of my journey but it is just 1 step in my life and I prepare to keep walking until I am a minimum of 80 years old. I don't know why I just feel like I will live until I am 80.
My preconceived thoughts almost made me lose pretty much the house of my dreams. The previous tenant mentioned her house being available but I didn't hear it.
My ears were just starting to open when she said it again and I am so happy they caught it.
I feel like I belong here and I have had that feeling since the first night I stayed in this house.
I worked my ass off to get the house the way I want it. Not because I needed to impress anyone I just have waiting for a long time to have a home for myself. There has always been something blocking that. Sometimes that was a physical thing and sometimes it was psychological. I have hated where I lived for too long and just when I thought I was at the end of my tolerance it went 1 step farther into Hell.
I enjoy sitting in my living room again and it isn't perfect. I want to paint and sdo some things here and there but it will do just fine until I get the time, energy and money to do those things.
Even Addy seems to like it here.
We carved pumpkins tonight and have spider webs on the bushes out front. Another thing we have missed for too long. The decorating need to improve. We have lacked in that department and need to step up our game.
It hasn't fixed all that ails me but it has definately put a heavy coat of salve on the tender parts and is feels good.Sometimes I have to stop, look around and think-Hey, I did this, all by myself.
I was thinking about coming back to my blog recently and was recalling all those posts where I said I felt painted into a corner or riding a merry go round that I couldn't get off. Guess what? I am off and I am watching others whirl around but I finally feel like I am doing what I want and in control of my own life. 

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Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40