Final step?

This whole time I have said this was a 3 step process-Divorce, Bancrupcy, Move.

Oh Silly, how it was so much more and is every single day.

It was the final BIG step of just this part of my journey but it is just 1 step in my life and I prepare to keep walking until I am a minimum of 80 years old. I don't know why I just feel like I will live until I am 80.

My preconceived thoughts almost made me lose pretty much the house of my dreams. The previous tenant mentioned her house being available but I didn't hear it.

My ears were just starting to open when she said it again and I am so happy they caught it.

I feel like I belong here and I have had that feeling since the first night I stayed in this house.

I worked my ass off to get the house the way I want it. Not because I needed to impress anyone I just have waiting for a long time to have a home for myself. There has always been something blocking that. Sometimes that was a physical thing and sometimes it was psychological. I have hated where I lived for too long and just when I thought I was at the end of my tolerance it went 1 step farther into Hell.

I enjoy sitting in my living room again and it isn't perfect. I want to paint and sdo some things here and there but it will do just fine until I get the time, energy and money to do those things.

Even Addy seems to like it here.

We carved pumpkins tonight and have spider webs on the bushes out front. Another thing we have missed for too long. The decorating need to improve. We have lacked in that department and need to step up our game.

It hasn't fixed all that ails me but it has definately put a heavy coat of salve on the tender parts and is feels good.Sometimes I have to stop, look around and think-Hey, I did this, all by myself.

I was thinking about coming back to my blog recently and was recalling all those posts where I said I felt painted into a corner or riding a merry go round that I couldn't get off. Guess what? I am off and I am watching others whirl around but I finally feel like I am doing what I want and in control of my own life.