I just learned another lesson.
I used to be really caught up in things I believed I "should" do. It put an unrealistic stress on me and my family, especially when I didn't have a solid reason for my should. I don't know why, I just know I should do this.
One of the shoulds I tackled was putting my daughter in CCD. I never went to Church or CCD. I do not believe a lot of the teachings of the Catholic Church but my ex-husband went as a kid and this was his family Church.
During this year I have found myself explaining Mommy's views are a little different that what you are being taught at Church but you should believe what you feel in your heart.
Mom, only men and women are supposed to be married-I explained it is my belief that anyone can get married as long as they love each other-doesn't matter what they look like.
Mom, How does Auntie have a baby when she isn't married? Again, it is all about the love honey. Uncle X loves her dearly and that is all that matters.
Don't even get me started on a 7 year old confessing her sins. If ever there was a time when people were innocent it would be now. So she doesn't listen to her Mom and fights with her sister-I do not believe that is a sin, I believe she is a child.
The point of my post......
I had a meeting at Church last night to prep her for 1st Communion. They gave us a workbook to work on at home. It might as well be written in Russian. All the have mercy on me is making me cringe.
To her, it is all about that beautiful dress.
I am proud of her. I feel like it is something she did alone. I am not proud of myself for that. I could not join her as I do not know what the heck they are talking about. That is not a good feeling.
I guess I need to find another plan for Ava. I want them to learn about God but not the negatives just the love he has for them. I sort of wish I had some type of knowledge besides he is up in Heaven and thunder is Him bowling.