Monday, November 9, 2015

Leaving Candyland again

I'm doing it again.
I almost don't even want to type it but I don't have another outlet. I have been stepping back from my online support group. I am trying to find a healthy balance between the "rules" and actually following the rules of bariatric living.
Fact is I need to do it. I run like a fine oiled machine when I do but right now I am uninspired, unsatisfied and not in the mood. This is a recipe for disaster and the main reason why I have tried and failed so many times lately.
A few weeks ago I hit the Fresh Market at the kids school and scored these acorn squash and some butternut squash. I roasted these tonight and ate them with some left over steak tips. Meh, it's food I guess.
It has been about 5 days and I still struggle at night. I am eating spoons of natural peanut butter to I don't know distract me, fill a hole, coat my guilty conscious?
I might see a slight improvement but no real joy right now. I want to ramp it up a little and add more fish. My go to choices are quick to make so I have no excuse.
I also need fats and vegetables. I am lacking avocado, nuts and veggies.   
A good chopped salad with some cheese sounds right about now.
Right now I am just still angry about losing it and the work it is taking to get it back. I am also tired. That always makes for a negative attitude for me.
Bed at 8.
Food tomorrow.
Feeling powerful the next day.

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Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40
5/20/18 YPD Run to Remember 37.37 12:08