Getting back into the groove

I just got back from a run, in the rain and eventually walked the last maybe quarter mile in the dark.
I can't explain why but today is the type of day I love to run. It is 50 degrees and pouring. Maybe it is the adversity but my time was one of the fastest and it was a longer route. 3.73 miles in 42:41.
While running I was thinking about why I was doing it and it started with
1.I haven't run in a while
2.daylight is running out
Next thing I know it grew into this.
I am doing it because I fear size 50 work pants
I fear 306 lbs
I fear looking like this again

 

So really I need to look at it from this point of view. There is no cheat day, just a bit, round the bend. I need to live the life. 

 

I have felt the power of the correct route before and am happy today to say I think I am getting it back. I was doing my best when I treated my body like a machine and succeeded when I fueled it that way. Of course I feel this way because I am sitting here in an nice endorphin haze so I always feel invincible when that happens. I guess the other part would be to keep the haze up too.