Saturday, October 10, 2015

Is this post about me?

Today something at work just pissed me off. So like a fool I jumped up onto my Facebook stool and spouted and spewed.
"Why is everyone always looking to play the victim? The World isn't fucking you. The only person who can fuck you IS YOU. Get up, be a good person, mind your own business, own your mistakes, learn from them, do your best and move on if you have to. 
I will be working on a polite way to say "Get over yourself" as I move on from anyone who shovels this shit in my direction from now on."

Now I wish I had just spoken to them when it was said. It would have been more direct, adult and possibly clarified the situation for me or them or both. I don't know maybe not.
What I do know is after I read the post a few times plus all the comments I started to feel not so good about it. I mean I believe what was said but it also showed me things about myself.
Why did I let it bother me so much?
How can I expect people to handle things the way I would?
How do I walk away from these situations?
I shouldn't even still be thinking about it but the post just brought about more thinking inside myself. Like now it isn't even about them but more about me.
What I do know is I don't like how I feel but I sometimes still go back to my old way of thinking or communicating.

Where is my......
Compassion
Empathy
Kindness
Understanding
Patience

So instead I offer my apologies until I can correct my behavior.

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Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40