Thursday, September 3, 2015

Another Epiphany






So this or it's cousin is my epiphany. 
I am laying in the dark with my bed full of the girls. I am not ready for bed but they are so I am "resting". Sometimes your best thinking can be done at these twilight times. As I always do I will start with the longwinded backstory. ( I swear I was from Mississippi in a past life)
Over this week Olivia has helped me with small projects as we get ready for school.
Clean out the shoe bin and get the shoes no longer worn out!
Clean out the hair and make up drawer (yes, that is a job in a chick filled house).
Match socks and happily walk over to the trash and throw away everything that was left.
These things all feel like a small win to me. Like I just saved 5 bucks towards a million.
I had to travel to the basement tonight and while opening a few tubs I found stuff that I seriously know is 25 years old. OK, like why? Do I really want to move this shit with me for the rest of my life?
And then I just thought I would throw away 50% of that basement if I had the means.
If it was a good memory I will always have that so why do I need the stuff? If it was a bad memory than saving the physical crap is just a weight anchoring me down.
I collected Volkswagens. I love them, you know it, but what am I really going to do with a bookshelf of car replicas? When you are 20, they are in the living room of your first apartment. Cool!  When you are 42 they are in a large tub, maybe 2 collecting spiders.  
I am ready I think to take the plunge. I think this month will hopefully be the one. If the kids are in school and I can get some lighting, trash bags and music I will unload.
I use the word unload but don't be fooled by its 4 letter 1 dimensional look because it can be a very deep word.
I want to live a very rich and full life and sadly I have been living a watered down and overloaded life. I am starting to feel like this is another piece to the process and I am a little excited.

1 comment:

Barry said...

Let me know if you have extra space in your dumpster….

Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40