Tuesday, December 30, 2014

My Stomach is in a knot.

Worry.
I just had an interesting conversation this morning about letting things go that you can't control. Worry doesn't do any good so why waste your energy on it.
I believe this for the most part but sometimes it is tough to do or I should say not do.
Currently my 'Worry" is in full effect.
I have tackled some big ass things in the last 4-5 years and every one took almost a year. I think I just found this years thing. It won't take a year because I will work my ass off and because I have taken care of all the other stuff. I have gotten rid of the other stresses, most of the excess and I am in a really good place right now.
The evil is MONEY.
I do not want to be afraid to hear from my Landlord. I need them right now. If I can't pay my rent how the Hell can I move if they throw me out?
I need a safety net.
I am so sick of struggling to do normal things.
I want to have a life not live to work.
Well that last one may not work until I dig out.
Good news is the hole isn't as huge because I have no credit. I have a house, car and utilities.
Of course they are all behind but that needs to stop. I am at the edge of the ledge too often and 1 thing like a hospital visit which cost me hundreds of dollars in Holiday pay cooked me. I now need to work a ton to fix it. I didn't want to spend my tax refund on bills but it sounds like that may happen again.

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Race Results

09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40