It is up to me.

I have been on a negative downturn lately. I do this up thing, down thing, up, down....
It's annoying really.
Lately it's been down. Not a huge down but a mild down I would say.
I was really starting to think 'when is what I do going to be good enough?'
I work hard. I keep taking the hits and getting back up and yet my load is still heavy.

I am slowly beginning to realize-I am the only person who can decide what is good enough.
That what I am doing is good enough.
It is up to me.

I think maybe I am tired, not from my life, but from beating myself up. God that is exhausting. I am involved in a boxing match and I am getting my ass kicked everyday.
I am spending so much time trying to NOT be this or NOT be that, that I have lost who I am or want to be.
Let's just cruise down the hill of life with no brakes and let it all go.
If only I could.