Balls in the Air

I am always talking about not having a handle on things.
Feeling overwhelmed.
Too many things on my plate.
I am not sure I want to say this out loud.
I feel like I have all these balls in the air and things are going pretty good. I found an eye doctor Ava and I love and have the glasses on order. I found a tutor to work with Olivia for the Summer and she is a special ed teacher so she will be perfect to deal with the things Liv needs. I have an evaluation with our favorite pediatrician in 2 weeks to try to get to the root of the attention problems she is having. I also found a psychologist for her who I like. He and I met last week and she will met him this week. He says he hopes to make progress in the next few months instead of us battling for the next few years. Now that gives me hope. My one big objective is to build her confidence and he says he will set up a plan where she will keep track of her goals and that will build her confidence and belief that she can do it.
I will be changing schedules in a few weeks and I will be working a few nights and a few days. This will be a little crazy at first but I am hoping it will afford me the time to work on these things and spend some fun time with them. I have just about reached my limit with the hustle and bustle of school, dance, homework, spelling, work......blah.
Can't I just sit on the beach with a pb&j and an ice coffee?
For the last week and next week I had to take 1 hr of vacation time as I have sort of lost my morning help to a cushy new day job. Trust me I am happy about it. It gives us Auntie back to a normal schedule and home for dinner with us. No more yelling Shhhhh all day while she tries to sleep for the midnight shift. Another perk I didn't expect was I sleep another 30 minutes but it feels like I have a ton more time. There is no yelling hurry up all morning while I try to get them all ready by 7:30 so I can leave for work. I get to put them both on the bus with a hug and kiss then I dash off to work. Isn't that how it is supposed to be?
I am not sure how I am going to be doing it next October when I may be going back to days full time again. I am not going to worry about that now. Let's just go with the flow and get our beach chairs ready.