Saturday, August 7, 2010

Unprepared-totally

OK I decide to be a big girl and have the girls over.
It was a great time and I was happy to be able to them to my house for once as the girls are with their Dad.
I did not realize how unprepared for a deck party I was. If I hadn't been so sick this week I may have thought of this stuff. But I did not even realize I had not 1 candle, tiki torch, nothin'. Well we stayed on the deck as long as we could stand it and moved inside.
Problem #2- Why don't I own a frigging shot glass? Because all of that was in the "man room" which means it left already or is locked in that room. Oh No, That problem needs to be addressed and fast. I will be shopping soon. I need a party cabinet people!
The crack dip rocked and the company was the best as always. I needed the girls. It lets me work through the crazy thoughts in my head. So after talking with them I woke up this morning and went to my garden with the Ipod on high. What am I going to go in the Winter when I can't pull weeds and think? My muscles are twitching and my bucket is full. My mind is sad. One of the big things I am realizing is I say to people I am not asking or looking for anything but that is not entirely true. I am looking to not repeat the last 10 years. I need, want and deserve better than that. I can not repeat that same pattern. I want someone who cares about me, will take care of me and not let me down. I have high expectations and don't want to settle again.
Do you know of anyone like this? I am now accepting applications.

3 comments:

Live/Love/Life said...

My heart ached when you said
"I need, want and deserve better than that." because as you know I am still traveling that long road. I wish you all the love and best. You do deserve it and it will be. <3
Keep smiling. <3

mm said...

Time.

Bonnie:) said...

You're aweswome.

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09/07/07 Main Street Mile 11:44
05/18/08 YPD 5k 52:57 17:05
06/14/08 Walpole Village 5K 35:27 11:26
06/21/08 Mashpee Fun Run 34:21 11:05
07/19/08 Mashpee Woodlands 36.49 11:52
08/10/08 Falmouth Road Race 1:29:31
08/25/08 Women Running Wild 35:40 11:30
10/25/08 Mashpee Firefighters 37:47 12:10
05/02/09 Cape Abilities 5K 34:59 11:17
05/17/09 YPD 5K 36:41 11:50
08/09/09 Falmouth Road Race 7mi 1:37
10/31/09 Mashpee Firefighters 5K 37:15 12:00
09/11/11 Main Street Mile 12:31
10/29/11 Screech to the Beach 5K 39.13 12:20
08/12/12 Falmouth Road Race 1:34:24 13:29
05/18/14 YPD 5k 44.25 14:17
06/1/14 June Jog 4mi 1:04 16:00
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:42:04 14:35
09/27/14 Girly Girl 5K 37:24 12:02
10/26/14 Pell Bridge Run 4mi 48:41 12:10
11/27/14 Turkey Trot in VA 5K 35:22 11:23
12/06/14 Jingle Jog 5K 34:42 11:11
03/29/15 Thomas Guinta Memorial 5K 34:14 11:03
04/19/15 St. Margaret's 5K 31:11 10:21
05/17/15 YPD Blues 5K 34:58 11:17
06/07/15 Newport 10 Miler 1:56:09 11:36
06/20/15 Mackenzie's 5K 33:55 10:54
08/17/14 Falmouth Road Race 1:33:51 13:24
10/31/15 Screech at the Beach 36:19 11:40