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In the last week my life has changed in ways I could have never imagined. Some of the changes I wanted, some of the changes I did not and some of the changes needed to be made although neither of us had the courage to.
I am learning that just when you think you will not be able to handle anymore something will come along and just jump on the pile. There, take that.
I would estimate my stress level between a 7 and an 8.
I have made the decision to move on my own which means no safety net. In a word Scary!
I am slowly packing a house that I feel is packed to the hilt with crap. Where did all this crap come from and why do we have it? I am trying to get rid of stuff in a way that feels good to my soul so I have been trying to list items on Freecycle to give away. If they are the kids items I try to explain to them that we have more than we need and others don't have those types of opportunities. Tomorrow a boat load of Princess stuff will go away.
I am also not dumb enough to give it all away so some things are listed on Craig's List in an effort to save up money for the move. Do you need a Humidifier?
I am also not against rolling the trash can up to a drawer and going to work because sometimes that is just how it has to be dome.
I feel like I am alone doing this but I do better tackling things alone. I just quit when I have had enough and go back to it when I can.
Selling a house Sucks! I have never done it before and I don't like it already. The realtor told me to start to pack as you want your house to look bare while it is being shown but the more I pack the more shit comes out of the crevices. I explained yesterday that I would need the weekend to get it together yet he called today to say he would like to show it in 2hrs. It is a short sale and I need it gone so I don't dare turn away a possible buyer so I worked for about 2 hrs and put away,hide,packed and scrubbed as much as possible then left. I just couldn't be here while people nitpicked my house. I know, I did it while I house shopped but it is still my shit damn it. After we returned there was no call, no nothing so I guess we can take the hidden items out of the oven now-Until the next time he calls.
I also would just like to know why when you tell people you are no longer together all the haters come out like a club I have just joined? Am I the only person that is separating from my husband but don't hate him? I went to the insurance company and she doesn't know him or I yet she was making comments about sticking to him because she had been through it herself. It was none of her business but I once again found myself explaining it wasn't like that.
I am flabbergasted by the people who want to mow him over. It makes me quite angry actually. I need this to go as smoothly as possible for my daughters. That we both agree on. Why can't people understand that? He did nothing to me but end a relationship we both know wasn't great. We both deserve better and the only way to get to a better life is to rip off the band aid and get to work. So now I am an open wound but each day I will heal a little more.
I have only a few things on my agenda:
To keep the girls first.
To not promise them anything I can't deliver or at least show them I worked my hardest to try.
To survive on my own.
I will survive but this is going to be one of the most difficult things I have ever done in my life.
I was really trying now to post my whole life on the Internet but I guess now I can call myself a Blogger.