I am leaving in .....I can't remember like 17 days for a trip to sunny California. I, as you know, need a halloween costume and am also learning it is about 90 degrees so that means peeling off some layers. As I start to shop on the internet and think about what is home in the closet I realize that I have already become more comfortable in my larger sweatshirt and long pants.
Do I have the strength to let it all hang out in Summer clothes again??? At least this Spring it started gradually but now I will leave a place at 50 degrees and get to a place where it is 90.
I am also going by myself so I can wear something I like and not something that is kid/dirt friendly. I am not even sure I know what I like in clothes. 3X clothes are pretty much the same but in different prints-a box with some sleeves sewn on so there was not much variety in my life when it came to clothes.Now I walk into clothing stores and I am overwhelmed. Can I wear something like this?? I was shopping Hot Topic online because at heart I like a little freak but aren't I too old for that crap? I have walked out of a few of these stores lately as I think the 19 yo employees are looking at me like I must be lost and looking for Marshall's.
I have to look at myself to find a costume I can wear and want to wear. That is two different things.
Why am I all stressed out over my fat when I should be thinking about a fantastic opportunity to see a side of America I have never been to before?In my head I see this....
But I will be 36 on Saturday so maybe I need to go back to Dress Barn and get something to cover my knee and not with a leather boot.Nana Pole Climbing Boots-You have to think these are HOT!